i lie inside myself for hours

new year, new me.

Wed, 03 Jan 2007 01:55:13 GMT

so i haven't posted in a VERY long time. :( i'm sorry. i've been totally off-track. like, completely. i don't know what i weigh right now..i don't know if i WANT to know. heh.

i really want to get back on track though. my stepfather challenged my mother and i to a bet: lose 20 lbs by April 1st, get $50. yesssssssssss. lol. so let's hope i can do that, i don't have $50 to give him if i fail! lol.

mom and i are really going to get into this though, so i think we'll be able to do it.

if anyone is still reading this, are there are any awesome new tricks that i haven't been around to hear about?

♥

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 04:12:59 GMT

wow...so it's been awhile since i updated...another awesome weekend with my boy :)

and yeah, so i'm holding out at a steady 230. :/

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 16:47:18 GMT

ugh, bad weekend for my diet.

good weekend the whole way around, except for that. i'm glad the weekend happened though, even though i gained all but 1 lb back...ugh. so yeah, 232 again. :/

pizza and candy and chinese will do that to you. but when your boyfriend comes up and you haven't seen him for a month, it doesn't feel as bad.

i did go to the gym for an hour on Friday though. and i've been doing my Pilates. i just have to get myself back on track, i'm not going to be seeing him for another month :/ but i want to look so much better by the time i do see him again.

gah.

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 20:28:31 GMT

3 lbs down guys :D the scale said 227. let's see if i can continue the trend :D

i'm not going to update my tickers or anything until Monday, the official weigh in day.

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 12:51:32 GMT

today's food:

9:00 AM - Breakfast: 2oz. Egg Whites + ½ cup raspberries (oh god do i love them haha)
11:30 AM- Mid-morning Snack: 2oz. chicken + 1 slice bread + apple. bottle of water
2:30 PM - Lunch: 2oz. chicken + 1 slice bread + 1cup carrots. bottle of water.
4:15 PM - Mid-afternoon Snack: nothing, you'll see why in a second
7:15 PM - Dinner: going to Subway with mom, (i'll get one of the 6 grams of fat or less subs), + diet soda
9:00 PM - Snack (Optional): apple

yeah so we're going to subway. they're healthy though and i get tons of veggies on my sandwich, so, yeah. we're also going to check out this gym she heard about.

have a good day ladies ♥

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 04:36:06 GMT

sooo...i bought a Pilates DVD. won't have the chance to do it until Wednesday >:( because i'm going to be out of the house for like 12 hours tomorrow, god damn it. i have a mandatory fucking lecture at 7 tomorrow night, by people who talked in both of my classes today! and i have no idea how long it is. plus then my half hour commute home. gah!

bah, i don't want to go. :(

but whatever. i will start my Pilates on Wednesday, and i will like it. lol. :)

thanks to all of you who have added me and are commenting and everything :) it means a lot

♥

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 13:59:47 GMT

maintained. 230. bleck.

this week will be better.

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 04:29:58 GMT

so tomorrow morning is weigh in...and i have a feeling that i didn't lose, just maintained. :/ better than gaining, but still.

so i'm trying out a new plan tomorrow, having finished the special k thing (damn am i glad that's over! too much fucking cereal!)

so this is what i'm eating tomorrow:

8:30 AM - Breakfast: 2oz. Egg Whites + ½ cup grapes
11:00 AM- Mid-morning Snack: 2oz. egg whites + apple. bottle of water
2:30 PM - Lunch: 2oz. chicken + 1 slice bread + 1cup carrots. bottle of water.
4:15 PM - Mid-afternoon Snack: 2oz. tuna + 1 slice bread. bottle of water.
7:15 PM - Dinner: 2oz. turkey breast + 1 slice bread + 1cup celery. bottle of water and/or diet soda
9:00 PM - Snack (Optional): apple

and there will be 45-60 minutes of exercise in there too.

read this post to read what plan i'm doing! (i'm not following it exactly to a T though..)

hope everyone is doing well.

♥

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 20:06:08 GMT

hmm..when i've weighed myself this week i haven't been seeing results...in fact it's been saying that i've gained. eh. but this is period week, and official weigh-in isn't until monday. and it was really weird last week, because it seemed like i didn't lose anything until monday, when 3 pounds were just gone.

i don't even know. weight and bodies are weird. :P

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 19:30:37 GMT

me right now (230)(supposedly, but i think i hold it better than this, lol):

and my long term goal (150 - and then i'll go from there):

yeeep.

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 12:36:44 GMT

my weight loss results!!!

i lost 3 pounds!!! :D for my first week, i think that's pretty damn good! :D

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 02:00:18 GMT

so i weighed myself today...but i won't say the results yet, because official weigh in is tomorrow.

but i'll say i'm pretty happy with the results :)

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 23:24:04 GMT

haven't updated in a few days..

been doing okay, i guess. sort of having problems controlling snacking. :/

but...the scale says i lost 2 pounds!!

official weigh-in isn't until monday, so we'll see for sure then.

i hope i hope i hope! :D

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 03:15:54 GMT

so i didn't end up doing the treadmill, because it's been a long time since i've used it, and i couldn't get it to work >.<

but i did do DDR, and i burned more calories today than my sparkpeople goal told me i should :D

unfortunately i did go over like 50 cals because i stupidly allowed myself to munch on triscuits, and instead of just taking out a few, i left them in the box and just ate from there...and therefore lost track of how much i was eating. :(

oh well, i'll do better tommorrow.

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 16:01:17 GMT

i forgot, i also have DDR i can do...so maybe some of that too.

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 15:09:27 GMT

so i had my special K for breakfast, and i brought a slim fast for lunch. i'm in between classes at school right now, waiting until 1:10 for my next class...kind of boring. i might buy a water too.

hoping to do treadmill when i get home for quite a while, as i have time before mom gets home to do whatever i need to do.

i need to weigh myself as well. :/

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 01:43:00 GMT

so we bought a scale..

and i had a bowl of special k this morning, an iced coffee with cream and sugar, a mozzerella stick, and a salad at Uno.

no treadmill today, no time. :/

hopefully tomorrow will be better?

sitting all alone inside your head

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 18:03:06 GMT

so i started the special k thing today. had a bowl of special k for breakfast, but since i got up late, i won't be having really anything until supper time later. i don't know what we're having but hopefully something good.

my mom is resisting going out and buying the scale, which is pissing me off because i'd really like to weigh in so that i know my starting weight...which is going to be a lot, because last time i checked i was around 225. :X ouch.

i also need to see if our treadmill downstairs is set up and ready to go, along with the tv/dvd player down there, because i have such a hard time just excersizing with nothing to distract me. :/

ugh.

first real post

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 03:57:59 GMT

so...i've started adding communities. hopefully i'll be able to check in every day and read some stuff that will inspire/motivate me.

starting the special k diet tomorrow, and we'll see how that goes.

i need to get a scale, hopefully a digital one, so i can see how much i weigh...

-.-

♥